"Well at least you're all settled into your house." Someone said to me recently. I kind of laugh-cried, not sure how to answer. Sure, you would think that after five years in a house, fixer-upper or not, one would be somewhat settled.
Except that we're not. At times it's been better than others but there is always some project going on that spreads construction debris, dust and miscellaneous project paraphernalia throughout the house.
The improvements are substantial and I'm thankful for them but I am beyond ready to feel more at home here. When I was pregnant with Sam we were planning to move to Portland so we put a substantial amount of things in storage. It's still there. While some people argue that it's just stuff and if we haven't needed it for this long we don't need it. To that I say, but I want it. It's my stuff.I am willing to get rid of some of it but not till I get the stuff that I thought I was only temporarily parting with back.
So all this is coming to a head lately as we are making a big push to settle back in. Now that we've got all the rooms where they're going to be, we can figure out where things really go. And donate what doesn't belong here anymore. I love my new office. There's just one problem. It's about a quarter of the size as my old one.
For Mother's Day, Matt volunteered insisted on helping me get a start on clearing out my office. He is hardcore. He also got a lot of ammunition to mock me for the rest of our marriage.
"Are you a depression era throwback or something?" He'd mutter, incredulous as he opened a box full of other empty boxes and then another full of plastic bags and tins. And don't even get him started on the magazines and wrapping paper.
"I thought we got rid of these last time we moved?" He said, just a hint irritated.
"Well, I labeled them as something else so they'd get in the van." I confessed. At the time itseemed clever. Now I wonder if maybe I do have a little bit of a hoarding problem. All these boxes and piles of magazines do make me feel kind of claustrophobic but I can't seem to get rid of them. I'm going to have to, though, because the image of me as an old lady working my way through rat tunnels of, ironically, Better Homes & Gardens, Good Housekeeping, Ms., Utne Reader, scrapbooking and writing magazines to ge to the kitchen freaks me out.
As I type this, there is not one single room in my house in order. Not one. I am either going to go crazy today or I'm going to start by getting rid of some magazines. Just a few.
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