Goodbye 2010 .. for the first time in as long as I can remember I don’t have a long list of things to improve about myself and my life because I finally get that isn’t how it works. I’ve learned so much this year about what does, and doesn’t, work for me that I’m going into this new year with excitement, joy and a sense of calm I barely recognize. I wish you that as well: calm no matter the chaos and a slow, steady journey in the direction of your dreams.
Fun fact about me: New Years is my most favorite holiday. Not because of how we celebrate outwardly but because of what happens in my head and heart. For as long as I’ve had journals, back when I called them “diaries” and they had locks I pretended could protect my privacy, I’ve spent some time reflecting on the past year and making resolutions for the year to come. These days I have a little less time for quiet reflection but am learning how to make room for myself in my own life. If you’ve never done it, it’s hard to imagine how you can lose yourself but I think it happens all the time. There is joy in the re-discovering. And hope.
It’d become tradition for me to flip through old journals and read over my old lists of resolutions. Guess what? They’re the same. Every. Single.Year.
I have a written record of an other-wise intelligent human being doing the exact same thing every year and eagerly anticipating different results.
So not this year, friends. The start of this year finds me exploring some different ways to tweak things to make my life work better for me. One of the things is super simple: finding awe in the ordinary moments that actually make up our lives. I’m doing this by starting my Project 365 book and committing to sticking to it all year long. Even if it’s 365 post-its. More about this project later.
The Wellness Journey class, excuse the pun, isn’t going quite as well. I’m still stoked about it but I’ve got some kind of road block about starting the fitness part of the class which is the first step. Actually, it’s the second step. I seem to also have issues with the first step which is this: get rid of your scale.
But how will I know my worth in the morning? Just kidding. Kind of. I get why one might suggest getting rid of it. But I’m so used to using that very tool as a measure of my progress, or lack there of. I am, sorry to say, rather attached to that stupid scale. Which I didn’t realize until this week. How dumb is that?! Also, I’m attached to negative self-talk. Insert smiley face here.
So that’s that. I signed up for it and trust the instructor’s experience so I will get rid of the damn thing. Just not today.
I love all the Top 10 round ups at the end of the year and am working on one of my own to share soon. In the meantime, here are a couple sites I’ve enjoyed and think you might, too.