Fourteen years ago today I took this little dream of mine to write a blog and made it real.
Fourteen. Years, people!
You guys reading my Nathalie’s Notes and coming along bearing witness to my memoir writing in real time have helped me grow as a writer, and a person.
Every time one of you wrote to share something I wrote resonated or made a difference or inspired you to do something different or see something in a new lens, I was reminded I am solidly on my right path.
So about that twisty, turny path … I’ve gotten a few texts and emails from long-time readers and friends wondering “what the hell is up with all the God stuff lately?”
And I answer: “I know, right?!”
Because … well … I’m the least likely person in my own mind to be writing about faith and God stuff. Partly because I’m more comfortable calling it “God stuff” than using other, more formal Jesusy language.
In fact, I barely speaka de Jesus and find it off-putting sometimes when others do. I think it’s because while it’s obvious when people are authentic in saying things like “Lean on the Lord, He’ll show you the way” but it’s also obvious when people speaka de Jesus to be exclusive and as mark of belonging to a club they aren’t sure you are worthy of, and I don’t have to be a biblical scholar to know Jesus ain’t down with that.
So back to the original question: What’s with all the God stuff?
Here’s the thing… When I started writing Nathalie’s Notes I promised to tell as much of the truth, my truth (and that gets tricky to sort out from the tangled truth of other people in my life) as possible … and right now God’s been up in my grill to go a little deeper with that truth telling and to include my faith in it. So I am.
But first I pushed back, hard. As in: “So heeeey, God, that’s really not my thing. There are other people who write so eloquently about you and they use all the right churchy phrases and I just think maybe you should help some of their posts go viral and leave me out of it.”
But then God was all pushy about it and insisting on me doing it in my own way, in my own words, just like always.
Okay, that I could do. I feel like my goal is kinda bridging the middle ground between my friends who are Praising the Lord right now and those who are rolling their eyes. Because I love all of them. Because I understand where all of them are coming from and because I judge none of them. At least not about that, I’m no saint you guys.
Some people are under the impression that because I am being more open about all this God business that it’s new for me. Not exactly.
The writing of this post near and dear to my heart is interrupted by small people who woke up too early and “too hungry to watch a show” while I complete my train of thought.
So, to be continued … it’s hard to say when, they eat all the time and I’m not the extra casserole in the freezer kinda girl. So, tomorrow? Next week? But for sure.
Wishing each of you reading this one of those days were random good things happen AND you have the presence of mind to notice, and embrace, them.
Also … let me know if you have any to add to this little list of questions I’m working on answering in the upcoming weeks.
Nathalie’s Notes FAQ’s*:
What the hell is up with all the God stuff lately?
What are you doing now “that you have more time” :
What do your parents think of your blog:
Does Matt read your blog?
What will your kids think of you sharing all this stuff?
*And by Frequently Asked Questions I actually mean “A few of you have wondered” but AFOYHW doesn’t really have a ring to it.
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