Slow and steady, I suppose
Revolving Resolutions

Summer Vacation: What not to say

When the fact that it's summer vacation for me comes up in conversation, I can count on the following comments: 1) Some form of a "well-meaning" insult like, "You suck. I wish I was getting paid for some vacation." And, 2) So, what are you doing with yourself now that you're not working?

On it's face, maybe not offensive. But let me introduce myself for those who don't know: I'm a touch sensitive. Just a titch. And I loathe feeling like I have to justify myself. The first comment pisses me off and makes me want to explain how a) I am not being paid for this vacation, these days "off" come out of my checks - every month. And, b) this time off still won't cover the amount of time I put in unpaid to do the job. As for the second one, well, that's not so bad except that the first comment has usually set me off by then so I feel defensive and want to say that "writing is working goddammit" But, since even I can recognize that, possibly, that would be an over-reaction, I just smile and say "Oh, I think I'll work on some writing projects and organize everything."

That being said, I do recognize that my reaction is more a reflection of my own insecurities, blah blah blah. And, make no mistake, I am stoked to be on break and thankful that I have this time to come up for air. I do not think school would be safe for children if staff didn't get time to recharge.